Tomorrow

Tomorrow is when I go back to the States. Tomorrow is when I will be, unfortunately leaving my husband alone. Tomorrow is the day that the distance, will once again, be an obstacle to overcome.

I envy that my husband could fall asleep so easily, and be quiet, and peaceful. I wish that I could fall asleep... No, I have been awake now for about twenty five minutes. My mind is all over the place, thinking of the things that we shared, and things I wish I had said to him. 

I do not want to worry him. I want to be strong, and put up a brave face for him. I do not want to be in a massive pool of tears tomorrow. I dread how I might react, once we get to the airport. I am afraid that I will lose my composure in front of him, and that it will be difficult of me to let go of his hand, to leave for the gate. 

It is true that eventually, all things must come to an end. Why must the end be so hard? Why cannot things be simple for international couples that are in a Long Distance Relationship? 

I know that we will see each other in December, and that is something to look forward to. I know that we must overcome this monster, called distance. We can overcome this beast, and we can get through it. These things take time to conquer, time and patience. 

I wonder what he must be thinking at this moment. What is going on inside his head? Does he also have the lingering thoughts that brew in my mind? 

I will miss his warm embrace, and sweet kisses. I will miss his light touches, and tickling fingers. I will miss staring into his ice blue eyes, so loving and caring. I will miss cuddling with him at night, and waking up next to him. Just a few more moments to kiss. Just a few more moments to laugh, and smile at his jokes. Just a few more moments to tell him how much I love him, and how much he means to me. 

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