The First Day Home

Well, I am home now... back in the States, and so far, I feel so alone. It is weird waking up, and not being able to see my husband's face first thing in the morning. It makes me feel a bit depressed that I will not be able to see him in person until December. My heart feels like it is breaking, and I cannot help but cry when I am alone. I should be used to these visits by now, and having to spend time apart from him, but the truth is that it is never easy. It just gets harder for me to spend time apart from him. I wish there was an easier way to break the distance. International long distance relationships are probably the most difficult to close the distance... there is a lot of paperwork, money, and patience involved when trying to close an International relationship. Patience is all we really have at the moment.

I really hope that December comes quickly. I want these months to fly by fast, just so that I can see his face and hug him again. It was heartbreaking, having to leave him at the airport. I could not keep it together at the airport. I started to cry as soon as I checked in my things. I cried even more when I had to leave for the security gate, and watched him as he kept looking back. I kept looking back as well... I was tempted to leave the security area, just to get one more kiss and hug from him. Although, I know if I did that, I would not want to leave his arms.

I miss him terribly, and love him to bits. I love my husband more than anything in the world. He makes my heart fill with joy, and my life filled with laughter. He knows how to cheer me up when I am down, and knows pretty much everything about me... inside and out. I never want to part from him again, when we close the distance. I want to be with him forever. I never want to leave his side.

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