The Long Distance Equestrian

It has been almost a week, since I came home from my visitation with my husband. So far, I am just going through the motions with waking up, work, and then coming home to prepare for bed. Work has actually been easy, and stress free for me, so far. Last night was my first time closing in four months, and I pretty much got into the swing of things. I just have to get my old routine back in order, because I did finish a bit later, than what I would have liked to finish. At least I also close on both Monday, and Tuesday. I think I should be good by at least Tuesday. It seems as though a lot of my coworkers missed me. There are also some new faces at the cafe, and quite a few changes. The old General Manager got fired, and one of the Assistant Managers within the cafe got promoted to General Manager. I am really happy that she got promoted; she deserves the promotion. After all, she has been working there for quite a while, and knows the ins and outs of working at the cafe. She also brin...

Tomorrow, I start work again, which should be a relief for me. It is at least something to keep me busy, while my husband and I have to wait until December to see each other again. At least work will make the time pass by fast... hopefully. Plus, there is a lot of things I have to do. For instance, I have to change my last name, so I take my husband's name. When that is done, of course, I have to change my passport so that it matches my surname That means, that I will not be able to travel, until I get another passport that matches my surname. At least these two things are something that I have to work on in the coming months. As long as I focus my attention on the things that have to be done, I should be fine... I think. I just hope that I will not stress myself out with these things. I also hope that my mother does not stress me out. Before the visit, she was stressing me out really bad. All she would do was criticize, gripe, and bombard me with questions about when exactly the...

Well, I am home now... back in the States, and so far, I feel so alone. It is weird waking up, and not being able to see my husband's face first thing in the morning. It makes me feel a bit depressed that I will not be able to see him in person until December. My heart feels like it is breaking, and I cannot help but cry when I am alone. I should be used to these visits by now, and having to spend time apart from him, but the truth is that it is never easy. It just gets harder for me to spend time apart from him. I wish there was an easier way to break the distance. International long distance relationships are probably the most difficult to close the distance... there is a lot of paperwork, money, and patience involved when trying to close an International relationship. Patience is all we really have at the moment. I really hope that December comes quickly. I want these months to fly by fast, just so that I can see his face and hug him again. It was heartbreaking, having to leav...

Tomorrow is when I go back to the States. Tomorrow is when I will be, unfortunately leaving my husband alone. Tomorrow is the day that the distance, will once again, be an obstacle to overcome. I envy that my husband could fall asleep so easily, and be quiet, and peaceful. I wish that I could fall asleep... No, I have been awake now for about twenty five minutes. My mind is all over the place, thinking of the things that we shared, and things I wish I had said to him.  I do not want to worry him. I want to be strong, and put up a brave face for him. I do not want to be in a massive pool of tears tomorrow. I dread how I might react, once we get to the airport. I am afraid that I will lose my composure in front of him, and that it will be difficult of me to let go of his hand, to leave for the gate.  It is true that eventually, all things must come to an end. Why must the end be so hard? Why cannot things be simple for international couples that are in a Long Distance Relationsh...

Yup, I have three more days remaining until I have to go back to the States. As the day gets closer, I cannot help but dread when it is time. I have no idea how I will feel, come Tuesday. Will I cry like a baby again? Will I be content and well? Will I just be a mess of emotions? Sometimes, when thinking about the day, my heart beats fast, and I start to get nervous.  I worry about my husband. I worry how he will feel when I go back. It will just be him and his cat, alone in the house that he lives. I feel for him, and wish that it did not have to be this way, but there is nothing neither of us could do. I hope we will get back into a good routine of skyping when we can, and trying to find ways to spend time together while apart. I hope that my job distracts me from me being emotional, when I go back.

So yeah, happy 2015. It has been a while since I updated the blog... but that's because I have been spending a lot of time with my husband in person.  As you all know, he came to visit me in the States from September to November. Well, I went back to England with him, and spent November to March here. I was originally suppose to leave on the 20th of January, but both he and I wanted to extend the ticket until March 24th. I am thankful that my boss at my job allowed me to do so, and thankful that I am spending this much time with him. We did a lot of things, while we were together in both the States and England. In the States, we went to my Uncle's wedding, and got to celebrate Halloween and my birthday. In England, we celebrated Christmas and New Year's together, got a chance to hang with my in laws, went to Amsterdam, and got a chance to enjoy Valentine's Day and our Anniversary together. Amsterdam was enjoyable. We went there for three days, and explored the city, and...