Meh

This week has been a week full of positives and negatives... my husband had to go to surgery last Friday for his teeth, and he is still recovering... which kind of sucks. I have been feeling in a depressed mood, and unsure about my abilities of working at the barn. I do love the job, yet cannot help but feel that the mares deserve someone better to take care of them, someone who has more time on their hands. At the moment, I feel pretty overwhelmed with working at Panera, babysitting my nephews, and having to work at the barn, all the while trying to keep my sanity in this long distance relationship. At least the hubby is coming in September.

I look forward to September, and look forward to spending time with V. I miss him terribly, and cannot help but think about him every day, thinking about our past times together and how close we were... physically speaking (get your minds out of the gutter!) Then, I am happy to go back to England with him from November, to January. It will be about five months together, which gets me excited, and hopeful that the time leading up to it will pass by fast.

Well, I am hoping that this week will be better, and that my mood will improve. See ya!

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