The Long Distance Equestrian

I am proud to say that I love my husband very much. There is nothing that I would not do for him. I will support him, as he has supported me over the years. It is that love for my husband that keeps me going. The distance may be hard sometimes, but at least I get to see him in September. Hope is what also keeps me going strong. I like having hope that we will conquer and end this distance, that we will someday be permanently together. Hope is a good thing.

Three more months until I get to see him again... three more months until I get to kiss him again, and three more months until I get to feel whole again. I cannot wait to see my husband. I miss him a lot, and yearn to have that physical closeness. I miss cuddling with him, and just doing stuff together, like close distance couples do. I think that a lot of close distance couples take being able to physically be together for granted at times. I cherish every moment when my husband and I are together, and dread the day when one of us has to go back. Well, at least I get to go back with him to England in November. I am going to be staying in England with him from November to January, so that is a whole five months together! I am pretty excited for that, and excited to go back to glorious London, the place that I feel most at home.

This week has been a week full of positives and negatives... my husband had to go to surgery last Friday for his teeth, and he is still recovering... which kind of sucks. I have been feeling in a depressed mood, and unsure about my abilities of working at the barn. I do love the job, yet cannot help but feel that the mares deserve someone better to take care of them, someone who has more time on their hands. At the moment, I feel pretty overwhelmed with working at Panera, babysitting my nephews, and having to work at the barn, all the while trying to keep my sanity in this long distance relationship. At least the hubby is coming in September. I look forward to September, and look forward to spending time with V. I miss him terribly, and cannot help but think about him every day, thinking about our past times together and how close we were... physically speaking (get your minds out of the gutter!) Then, I am happy to go back to England with him from November, to January. It will be abou...

The hubby is going to be coming to the United States for two months, from the 20th of September to the 20th of November. While I am excited about him coming over, I cannot help but miss him, very much. So far, our plans to get the forms in by mid January... kind of fell through. We most likely will not be able to get them in until at least April or May. Since that set back, it could now be even later before he can permanently settle in America. Again, that is if his application gets approved. I really hope it gets approved.. It is a scary to think that it is uncertain if I can handle another year of just visits to each other. I know that I have to be strong about it, and that I must not lost hope, but sometimes it is hard... especially during times when one feels the loneliest... I just have to try my best to keep busy with work at Panera, and the horses, although I am losing enthusiasm for both jobs. As much as I love working with the horses, I find myself trying to actually find ...