Christmas Thoughts

The month of December is a month dedicated to the holidays, from Hanukkah to New Year's Eve. December is also a time where family, friends, and even lovers get together to share the season. It can be a joyous time of the year. In some cases, it can also be a depressing time of the year.

Of course, I'll be spending Christmas with my family. For New Year's, I am going to be going over a friend's house for a New Year's Eve party. I am looking forward to these events? Well, yes... and a bit of no. I should be used to it by now, spending Christmas without V. This would be the fourth year of me spending Christmas and New Year's without him, and him without me. I sometimes get depressed over this fact because, well I sometimes dwell into the world of imagination and fantasy. I sometimes imagine what it would be like to celebrate Christmas and New Years's with him and his family. After all, his family seems to be a lot closer than my family. I imagine how fun, and yet how intimate it would be... and I start to crave and wish it. Now, maybe it is a bad thing to be dwelling on these thoughts, maybe not. Who is to be the judge of that? I guess it helps a bit that we'll both be a bit busy spending time with our families and friends for the holidays. Maybe I will get that chance, hopefully next year, to spend Christmas and New Year's with V and his family.

So, what sort of advice can I possibly give during this time of year? I guess I would have to say that it is important to try to stay busy, with families and friends. Try not to dwell on thoughts of being "alone" for the holidays. Maybe (if possible) have your own online Christmas celebration with your SO (if you are both not busy.) So my question for this blog post is... What are you doing for the holiday season?

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