The Long Distance Equestrian

Well, on Wednesday I went to the Social Security office to finally change my last name. I now feel like I am really his wife, and it feels great! Of course, we have been married for three years, and I felt like his wife then, but now, it feels more official in a way? Anyway, the card with my new last name should be arriving in two weeks. Then, I get to do the fun stuff, like notifying my work, bank, oh, and getting a new passport with the new last name. I think I am going to save the passport for last, since this year, I am in no rush to change it right away. Nope, there is not going to be any traveling to England from me, this year. Hopefully next year, when I travel to England, it will be for good. Work has been a bit more easy going for me, although I do wish that we closed at nine, instead of ten every day. I mean, sure, there is more time to prepare for closing, but I just do not like getting out at 11:00pm every night. It makes going to bed at a decent hour pretty difficult. I ...

I think I am starting to get back into my old routine. I work four to five days a week, come home, and either get on the pc to relax from the work day, or take a shower first before going to bed. If I have a day off, I will usually skype with the hubby and spend some time with him. I also talk to him a bit before work, but he is usually busy playing a game, or doing something else over there, which is fine. I will also try to do my chores around the house, and get my work laundry done so I have fresh clothes for the next work day. Getting into a routine has caused me to think a little less about the distance. It helps to focus on other things, and it does makes the days go by a little faster. However, at night seems to be the worst time. There are no distractions for me, so many stressful thoughts and worries come flooding to me during that time. It is also difficult for me to sleep at night. It is either too hot, or too cold, and I always find myself tossing a lot. Maybe I need to p...

Night is the loneliest time during the day. At night, a person is left alone with just thoughts, and feelings. The best way to cope with these thoughts and feelings is to write them all down, then let it out. This is why I love writing in my blog. It allows me to freely express myself, and to let my emotions pour into my writing. I start missing him at night because that is when I think about how we would lay in bed, either watching tv, cuddling, or just sleeping together. I liked how I made myself comfortable. I would always put my leg over his, and I would always try to curl up close to him in the beginning of the night. When I woke up the next day, my leg would still kind of be over him, but I would find myself further away from him, most likely because it gets really hot in the room at night. His cat would always sleep with us too. She would either sleep in the middle of us, or on top of one of the many pillows on the bed. I miss cuddling with his cat. I loved his cat, and woul...

It is Easter weekend, and I work tomorrow, and Sunday. I have a feeling that it is going to be busy at my job tomorrow. On Sunday, however, it will probably be slow. It is always slow on Easter. I am hoping that the store will close earlier than 10pm on Easter, but I doubt it. Oh, one can only dream. So, now it has been a full week since I came back from England. I still find it kind of hard to cope with the distance after coming back. I was so used to the routine that my husband and I had over in England. We would get up, have breakfast if either of us was hungry, then talk about what to do for the day. The day would either consist of shopping for bits and pieces, tidying the house a bit, or just relaxing. I loved our routine, and loved how we planned together. Now, rather than ask what "we" have planned for the day, I ask him what he has planned for the day. It is a bit harder to talk to one another, since he is five hours ahead of me. By the time I come from work, he is ...